Day of Rest.

I actually had a lovely day of doing nothing today! Here's the happenings of today...

I was woken up at 5:30am to go to our church's sunrise service.  I was so utterly confused and just upset because it felt like I had just gone to sleep.  It was rotten.  So I fell asleep again.  Was woken up about ten minutes later and I blindly got up and dressed myself (somehow) and straightened my seriously messed up hair.  We got to church and were seated (in the first bloody pew) just as the bell was ringing.  The main problem with this church deal is that we don't go to church on a regular basis anymore.  After my younger brother finished confirmation we turned into "that" family that doesn't come anymore besides Christmas Eve and Easter morning.  My mother and I hate that.  I also hate our church.  It's an old congregation; old church; old ways.  We're a St. John's Luthern church. You mention a live worship band to the elders and they stare at you... I would know. ( I go to youth group at an Assemblies of God church every week as well as a camp youth group every other Sunday so I think I'm making up for missing church. hah. ) Anyway!

After church got done, my mother took me home so that I could go into work at 8 that morning.  So I did and all was well.  I checked the calendar because the person who worked last ended up leaving half of the store still on and low and behold my boss had crossed my name off to work today and put hers down. I was on time to work and possibly 5 minutes early, but I was getting settled and she still wasn't showing up, so I figured maybe she just did that absent-mindedly? Who knew? A quarter after 8 comes around and Diane (the boss-bitch) shows up and says she's scheduled to work and tells me to have a nice day off.

I don't think I would normally complain about not working, but I was absolutely ticked off.  She didn't call me to notify me that I didn't need to come in and she had changed that schedule in the last 5 days.  The owner of the bloody store doesn't need the extra holiday-working money like us minimum wage-working people do!  Our overtime isn't even all that "whoopdedoo" either; our overtime is time and a half.  I need whatever money I can get and she just snatched it away in her bitchy way this morning.  So it was easy to say that my morning was absolute shit... well... besides the sermon at church because my pastor got really emotional. I like it when he does; it gives me faith that he's not just a stiff old traditional man just doing it because "it's what you do."

Moving on.

So, after being told to go home in her polite and annoying way I drove the five minutes home complaining to my mother the situation.  I went straight upstairs when I got home, changed into my sweats and read a book in bed for about two hours.  Soon that changed into sleeping, which I was oh-so grateful for.

I made up a game in my dream, so that was a plus. And I remember it! Double plus! 

After everyone in my family took naps I helped with dinner(supper) and plastered crap on whatever blank space I had on my wall.  Supper was incredibly quiet with just my parents, brothers and grandpa.  It was nice not being in the presence of the cynical grandmother from my dad's side for once. A good break. ( I broke the news to her lately I might pursue a major in Photography or Film/Video... she responded with, "You know you have to make sure you go into something with a lot of jobs... and money." 

Finished the day off with watching TLC, the Disney Channel (Sonny with a Chance and Wizard of Waverly Place [which I never previously watched]) and the Sound of Music and also playing My Tribe and creating some creature things on the Spore Creature Creator. 

Eventful and long day.

BEDA Day 12. fin.

Long Easter Break.

So, you know those Capri Sun juices from way back when? Well, even though they're still around, they're taking on a new look.. sort of.  Instead of the weird yellow-orange and somewhat pee-like liquid they've made it "Capri Sun Roarin' Waters." And it's clear! No more pee!

Well, my mom showed up with them the other day and I've been going through 2 or 3 a day.  I've been deprived, I guess.  Every time I drink one it's like a trip down memory lane and I remember those commercials (that sadly worked) where these kids were on the beach and surfing or where ever else.  You have to remember what happened when they drank them, right? They all of a sudden changed into these metallic/chrome beings that started at their fingers and spread throughout their bodies! Well, that's where it got me.  My brother must have told me (or I convinced myself) that if you drank it fast enough your fingers would start turning metallic/chrome.  I wish I knew exactly how many times I did that and still convinced myself I wasn't drinking it fast enough or pressing my fingers down hard enough. I was a crazy child.

I am nearing the end of my servitude outside to my father and the sticks that once blanket nearly all of our yard. It's quite possible we've worked 20 hours out there with the sticks... It hasn't been fun.  At least I've been more level-headed than my brother, who went through 6 hours of work today huffing and puffing, complaining and just simply being pouty.

So that's it for today, I guess.  My mum made angel food cake. =)

.............- okay. I have a confession here.  Where those periods are I intended on typing "Good day," but the problem... was I spelled it like this "Doog" and then proceeded to backspace quickly just like every other time I don't do something right.  The point of that was... that that was weird. Completely dyslexic. Wow.

I should go to bed.

I think I will.

Good Night.

BEDA Day 11 Done.

CRAP!

AHHH!!.. i was so busy avoiding my father and watching What Not To Wear, Dirty Jobs and Say Yes to the Dress that i completely forgot. I'm obviously rushed because i'm not capitalizing my I's like i'm trying to do now to get into the habit. My grammar is following suit.

Alright.

Buti'm going to bed now.

spacing is shit too.

crap. 

BEDA day 10.... sort of happened.

Bad Day.

My day was going great actually. Absolutely wonderful. I was outside, listening to my Zune and didn't have a care in the world... until around 7.  Then the drama thing happened again and it's all really upsetting.

I was going to watch the sunset via text with my friend, but it was ruined by drama and angry words.  Now I'm not going to be getting a scholarship done that my dad is going to flip once he hears I didn't do it.

Ugh. My day was seriously flipped 180.  I have no will for anything.

Positive thought: Only twenty more days of this prison.

Negative thought: The celebration bon-fire/HuHot date with all my friends is going to be crushed by this. As well as a road trip we were all going to go on and FFA State Convention.  

At state we have to room with our team. My team consists of: the one who used to be my best friend until she turned whore and doesn't really care about anyone besides her list of guys, the one who betrayed my friend and I and I can no longer trust and finally the one who was told by the previous person that we have not been true friends to her the past 3 years.

This is going to be a bitch.

I'm going to bed.

BEDA Day 9 Done.

60.9 %... Hellz Yeah!

I never use Z's in place of S's... then again, I never say "Hellz Yeah" either.  To explain the title... I am not a proud parent of a D- in Algebra III. xD . It's a weird feeling going from failing for an entire quarter to finally getting it to work out. All my quizzes and tests are coming back at a steady 70%. As long as I pass, I guess. Even though the damn class is killing my GPA.

So, I just left to search the fridge for whatever reason (it's sadly an involuntary action now) and i found 2 packs of CapriSun! We haven't gotten them in years! I guess it would be normal to outgrow them, but goodness these are wonderful! We have grape and strawberry kiwi! I love all things strawberry kiwi.  When I was little (or just simply younger) I would take a couple and put them in the freezer and after they froze I'd cut them open and put them in the cup and eat them all icy. ...Eat them? Eat them/drink them. Either way.

As a result of my punishment I have been left to get a ride with my little brother to school in the morning.  During that 15 minute car ride I listen to my Zune in order to drown out his senseless music taste and read my book assignment for that day.  So, I barely notice what he's listening to... unless it's horribly obvious by the bass beat. It seems that everyday just as we're getting into town he turns on  song with a butt load of bass.  I have no idea what he's trying to prove in his Alero, but whatever he needs to do, I guess.

I was picking up sticks again today after school and my dad left so I started... not picking up sticks.  I was listening to the Across the Universe soundtrack and climbing over and on the multiple towering piles of tree branches in our backyard. It was really fun!  I felt like I had a soundtrack to everything I did. It was brilliant.

On that note I'm going to head out.

I'm ridiculously tired. 

It's officially my Easter break.

30 more days of high school.

This day in history...

Unappealing picture of my friends on a ferry at night in Paris.

Kelsey while we were at Versailles in France.

Visiting the Eiffel Tower at night.

BEDA Day 8. Done.

Open Your Eyes and Look North.

The title is a title of a ...Dance Gavin Dance song?... I think. Not positive on that one.

Well today was drama filled but overall pretty darn good. It was what you would call a pleasant day.  Well, besides the fact that my "best friend" refuses to even talk to me, but honestly I'm done having a fit about it. I'm done.  If she wants it sorted then she can sort it.  I'm done being the sorter. Moving on...

Tonight was the FFA Region Banquet for our region(obviously), and lets just say it didn't go so smoothly.  Lets leave it at that.  Anyway, for the Region President's Retiring Address he had some friends open up for him and they got inspiration from a video on YouTube called Kittens Inspired By Kittens (which I didn't find all too hilarious by the way) and they asked if anyone was obsessed with YouTube and I was thinking about all those who think they're obsessed... and they don't even know the hidden world of YouTube!  It's not even hidden, these funny viral video obsessors are just missing them because they only go to YouTube for the brainless laughs they'll get.  And they call themselves YouTube obsessors!  I wanted to walk up to the mic and explain to them what a vlogger was and how a good majority use YouTube to do so much good... and for laughs. =)

Anyway, that just amused me, I guess.

I should be off now. I had 3 tribes on My Tribe and one of the Tribes just completely died on me over night. =( oh well.

Oh! and Trevor Mcnevan, who is an awesome guy, plays in two bands: Thousand Foot Krutch and FM Static and the latter has actually JUST come out with a new concept album. You should check them out. =) He's a breath of fresh air.  Just music.

I seriously do love him and would love to spread that love. 

So that's all for tonight.

Have a wonderful rest of the night.... even though no one reads this and its very close to midnight.

I'm off to read Keys to the Kingdom.

BEDA Day 7. el fin.

Today in history...

The Louvre. "No humping the escalators, please."

It took us ages to find this, and Derek was relentless in our search.

My "Pride & Prejudice" shot of the French countryside.

This was in a seriously dodgy tube-car-thing (whatever they're called) so we dubbed it 'gangsterly.'

...lovely sophomore humor.

Damn High School Drama.

You know high school needs to end when... 

• you end up losing control of your annoyances with your "best friend"
• you come clean to one of your closest friends that "yes, they have always been forgotten and left out...for a reason" 
• you fail a class.... which never happens or has come close to happening.

Thats it for now.  Today has been a horrible day. I apologized to one of my closest friends today... for not being a good friend. My friend and I were bitches to her, honestly. What sucks is that I've only on rare occasions actually had a problem with her.  My friend, on the other hand, has only on rare occasions actually liked her. I always just went along with it because I'm a horrible person with horrible morals. So then my other friend and I kind of just started having enough of the bitchy friend.... and then what does she do? She goes and gets all friendly and turns hypocrite to the one she HATED and stabs my friend and I in the back and betrays our trusts and secrets without actually putting herself in the dog house as well. What did they do? They went to a concert and didn't tell us....because the bitchy friend schemes like that.

...... I'm ending this here.

I only wrote this because its the only thing on my mind.

Welcome to Drama High!

The thing is... we never have drama like this; High School just needs to end.... and not be capitalized like that.

Thats it. 

BEDA DAY6. Done.

FM Static's new cd is out tomorrow. Concept album!

only good thing in my life.  =)

This day in history...

In the so cool but freaky Abbey-turned-into-a-motel. (France)

The coach broke down and we were left without our luggage for a day.

This is really hysterical because she (the girl in the back) was angering us so much.

Now we look back and realize we let her almost ruin our trip. hah.

Recovering SIMS addict. FAIL.

Today was quite uneventful.

I cleaned out my car, mopped the hallway, read a book, watched tv and sat on here... playing My Tribe.

Now, My Tribe is a time management simulating game of people creating a tribe on an island. I guess you could say it's Lost minus the plane crash, the others, weird island happenings and people can't have babies.  They certainly can have babies on My Tribe.  What my problem is is that I thrive off of forming my own community/family or anything of the sort.  The SIMS was what I lived off of for most of my middle school years.  The whole simple naming people whatever you want them to be named and have them be whatever you want them to be... its exhilarating. The control is intoxicating.

Anyway. So I downloaded My Tribe after almost drooling over the new SIMS 3 that's coming out in June.  I just need some kind of thing to check up on and be bored with.

Also... My friend, Kelsey, recently found a song that's titled "Kelsey" by Metro Station and it's perfect for her.  She then found a song titled "Mckenzie" for her sister... that's just like her.  So I thought... "Hey, there must be something out there titled 'Laura'. " So I looked it up on the iTunes store and found "Laura" by: The Scissor Sisters, Billy Joel and Flogging Molly. =)  I was pleased with the turn out.  I have a Flogging Molly vinyl so I was very excited to see they had a song with my name as the title.  Yeah, turns out the song is kind of like saying goodbye to Laura because she's dead, but she was beautiful and it sounds like she was a wonderful thing... when she was alive.  It's slightly ironic because I've always thought I would die young and I always think about it. (I'm not scared of it. It's just always back there.)  Anyway. I love the song. You should check it out. I would put a hyperlink but I'm way too tired. 

So I think after that I will be off.

My-......... I was about to write a pleasant comment about my dad until in the last 60 seconds he had to be a jackass.

AGH.

BEDA DAY 5 IS DONE DAMMIT.

(2yearsagotodayiwascrossingtheenglishchannel)  =)

Saturdays Haunt Me.

I honestly don't know why I'm sticking with this whole BEDA crap when I'm pretty positive no one reads this. (If anyone does, a little "hello" would be nice.)  I wasn't going to blog today. I'm way tired and I usually put things off until the last minute and then never do them.  Its just how I am.

Today was the first time in a couple months that I have gotten to sleep in on a Saturday. I slept in a whopping hour and then was woken up to go work outside.  My dad thought it would be a great idea to get more than 10 huge old trees around our house/farm cut down... for space and hazard reasons.  Yes, lovely.  What's not lovely?  The picking up of the sticks and branches. We spent 8 hours working on getting what's left of the trees (the entire trees minus the trunks) and we're not even halfway done.  God help me if they try and wake me up tomorrow morning.  Its suppose to snow tonight anyway. We'll see.

Yeah, that snow?! Well I have no idea where the heck that's coming from. Give it to Fargo. Back off us here who aren't having problems at the moment. Leave us be! That sounded incredibly bitchy. I'm sorry.  I know people in Fargo. That crossed the line. I'm tired.

My bed is calling my name...

OH oh oh... 2 years ago today I was in London. =) & =(  .. last year around this time I was horribly depressed. I think I'm learning to deal with it. Gah.. I'll never be able to fully deal with it until I get my ass back over there. Well okay. I'm really off now. 

BEDA Day 4 Complete.

I'm sticking with it!.. regardless of any form of anyone else in the universe caring.

My World Is Crashing All Around Me.

So, I was in the middle of reading hayleyghoover's  lovely blog and then my mother sprang the news at me... We won't be getting HBO or Starz for the next couple of months. I honestly don't know what to do with myself.  I seriously sat there and felt like I was going to shrivel up and die.

A bit of history for you.  We just got satellite/dish in September of 2008.  So this has been a big part of my year so far.  I live off of HBO and Starz movies. I'm completely serious.  I know that sounds horrible and I know I completely don't know how to control my TV-Movie watching, but c'mon! I'm grounded for a month, my netflix is cancelled, and I'm honestly on a very steep slope to depression thats all speeding up and ready to crash as my senior year wraps up.

So it might sound pathetic that losing my movies I can watch for free can have this huge affect on me, but really it's everything lately compiling into one and proving to me I'm going to have a month full of picking up sticks outside.

On to a different topic.

You can rent movies where I work.  This man who is in his late 20's/early 30's comes in often and he always provides good, sarcastic and sane conversation.  This time he was asking me about movies... he ended up asking me about Twilight.  He'd already seen it and wasn't too impressed... figures. Turns out he guessed I was "one of those girls who loves it." Oh Lord did I have an interesting time trying to explain to that man that I both love it and hate it, it's embarrassing and you have to expect the book followers to love it as well.  I also refused to tell him how many times I've seen it in the theatre(5).

More onto the "my world is crashing all around me" topic...

That is surely an Emo topic.  I really do feel as if that's happening. I've been failing AlgebraIII since the first day of that class. Now going into the last quarter I'm sitting at 59.4%. Now on Academic Ineligibility and I have to attend Saturday School or I'm Ineligible and cannot attend FFA State Convention.  I've never been such a mess academically than I have been this year, or even just until Algebra III.  Really, it sucks and in general I'm just.....bllllah.

So I'm off. To live and fail another day. =)

BEDA Day 3. Done.

Things That Annoy Me.

Agh!... I'm going to start bursting out in a rampage. I 

1. People eating things and smacking their mouth.

a. People who eat cereal and smack their mouth while their chewing it.

-It disgusts the crap out of me.  My brother is doing it behind me and I was struggling to untangle headphones to put on before I started screaming.

b. Gum smackers.

- We went to see Gypsy in New York and there was a lady from the south (yes, we could tell.) She was sitting next to my friend's dad ... so there were 2 people between her and I.  I could hear her smacking her gum the loudest I have ever heard any human do so before. It was completely inappropriate for the theatre and so irritating!

- I used to sit next to a junior in Mythology who was sort of a friend to me (we didn't talk much until that class) and he smacked his gum relentlessly too. It made it hard to concentrate. I always felt my body tensing up- ready to strike.

c. Bananas.

- I hate bananas. When people eat them in front of me. Mushing that crap in their mouth. Disgusting.

....thats it for now. I just had to get it off my chest.

Younger Sibling Pain.

What I just realized more than anything that pisses me off: my younger brother, Alan. He is... such a moody prick.  

The relationship we have is not like normal siblings who get along once in awhile... we don't get along.  I have a hard time even saying his name without having a waver of anger flash over me.  He is exactly the type of person I despise; he swears constantly, gives no regards to people's feelings (God forbid someone does the same to him.), he gets my mother to buy him expensive clothes at places like American Eagle, Abercrombie and Hollister just because everyone else does, and he acts like a complete fool just because he thinks he's cool! He's a bloody idiot!  Harsh words, yes, but c'mon! He's such a jerk and never listens to my mother and just swears up a storm in front of her even though if my dad so much as heard a "damn" he'd be screamed at.

On certain days he would call me fat and anorexic in the same day.  Like I'm not good enough being his sister because I'm not the right type.  He's a prep.  I'm in the "who really cares about popularity when you act like that and conform..etc" group.  We're still friends with the preps, we just don't mingle when we don't have to. We talk to everyone.  He's friends with those immature sophomores who think it's awesome to drink and be an idiot.  As a senior with a better overall perspective it's making me SO ANGRY to have a sibling that's that ridiculously dumb and takes advantage of dumb situations and so on and so forth.

This probably doesn't make sense or sound bad at all, but you have no idea what I'm living with here.  This moody, conforming, immature monster.  He got back around 2 or 3 this morning from baseball at the Metrodome and he's been so pissy and flipping out at every little thing since he got home an hour ago.  He's their perfect, all-sport, parent-canoodling child.  He's clingy as the youngest. uuggghh. He makes me sick.

Rough post. 

Sorry.

Had to get it off my chest

These are some loud comments he made while I typing this.

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"Cuj, get the hell off the table. Who the hell do you think you are?"

(Cujo is our cat...whom he's seriously physically abuses each and every night.)

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"See Cuj, thats why I don't like you... D[ouche]-bag."

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"Cuj, I'm gonna kill you."

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Him: "Did you take a look at my pants to see if you can fix them?"

Mum: (eating food) "...Why?"

Him: "Whah?....." (gets up huffing and puffing and starts screaming) "I asked you to fix them!..." 

(bla bla bla.... he proceeds to slam cupboard doors as he storms out of the room mumbling profusely.)

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siigh. BEDA Day 2. Done.

BEDA, here I come.

Happy Birthday to my friend Aaron Gillespie! ... who would never read this. I just think its hilarious his birthday is April Fools Day; he really is a joke. x) and this is him. 

because i like visual aids.

(This is Aaron and Rachel.)

To explain Aaron I guess you could say he went from a goofy, private-christian school(k-8), farm boy to a (in the private to public school transfer) goofy, cocky, kind-of-inappropriate, mind-always-in-the-gutter, christian farm boy.  I miss the old him, but he's still Aaron.

No, I did not have a purpose for that, but HEY... Greg Holden posted a new video/song today. Check it out!

So my whole.. stuck at home for a month thing. Exciting. Here's the story:

We got a puppy. Woo freaking hoo, right? Well, my entire family went to go eat with another family and left me to deal with the puppy. My friend was in town babysitting so I decided to take my mother's Honda Pilot to town... because it was convenient and easier to drive with a puppy flipping out in the passenger seat. So I backed up... and I always do it moderately fast because I'm so used to it. The thing is... the family that my family went to eat with were buying our camper from us that night and my father had set it up directly behind the pilot about 10 feet. Naturally, I forgot about it's existence and backed up right into the corner of the camper with the corner of the back bumper. I cracked the bumper, apparently broke a part of the awning on the camper and knocked the part where you connect it to a truck or SUV off of the block it was resting on.  So they came home, found out, flipped out and proceeded to take my life from me one bit at a time. They took: my Netflix subscription, my car for 2 weeks, and all activities besides school and work in the month of April.  They took the last full month of my Senior year away from me. That sucks ass. I'm not kidding. April is like... concert, spring and "lets do whatever because it's amazing out" month. That's my sap story. It really does suck.

My parents just left for the Metrodome because our baseball team is going to watch the Gophers play and then play a game at 9:30. Wow. people must jump at a chance to play in the dome if their willing to get home around 2am or later. Hah.

That's all I'm going to write for today. Day one of BEDA done. =)